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A Soliloquy on Depravity

The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it?
(Jeremiah 17:9)

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My hands are dirty – polluting all they touch. My eyes feed on filth and never, never have enough. All that passes over my hellish tongue, and through my vile lips, is not just tainted with evil but wicked to the core; as the kernel of thought was concieved in the rotted womb of my own dead heart.

Wickedness is not something I do, it is what I am.

All I offer, if anything at all, I corrupt. Even my most “sincere sacrifices” are in reality nothing but hypocritical bribes, aimed at attaining a thing for the pleasure of my own consumption and falling [or rather purposefully stopping] short of even attempting to aim at Your glory. And to even further manifest the stone cold state of this chunk of granite – I do these things, am told of Your worth, and give no regard.

Wickedness is not something I do, it is what I am.

Your command is to repent; yet there is no shadow of turning within this stalwart of self-sufficiency. Your command is to believe; yet I dare not trust You as You are vehemently opposed to all I am, and I to You. I cannot trust You, as this bedrock of self-sufficency is the foundation which I came from the womb building my empire upon. To lose this is to lose my life. Not only that, but this bedrock is my very core. It is bound to me and I to it.

Wickedness is not something I do, it is what I am.

Command repentance – I cannot give it, for there is none within me. I will not seek it, loving all I am and gladly being bound to it. You say, “REPENT!”, yet my master says, “No!” – and gleefully obey his wishes.

Wickedness is not something I do, it is what I am.

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Can the Ethiopian change his skin, or the leopard his spots? then may ye also do good, that are accustomed to do evil.
(Jeremiah 13:23)

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